What can be more beautiful than watching Manhattan downtown from Bay Ridge pier at 7:00PM? Probably coming back home after that and finding a loving family and a bottle of beer with a freshly cooked dinner on the table. Eh, moments like this I realize how sometimes life’s problems can disappear from your mind when you witness a beauty like this. Dostoyevsky was right, beauty will save the world.
Now since I have nothing else to say, I’ll jsut go ahead and blog about my love life here instead of being a wuss and creating some xanga acount to let my emotions out. Basically I have three girls on my mind right now. One of them is an angel that God has sent to save me with her love, yet I get that special gooey feeling in my stomach everytime I see her, so I cannot talk to her, only be numb and enjoy all that beauty. The second one I don’t know too well, but I have this feeling that we have so much in common and she could be the most understanding person I know (and so far it seems so), yet I think I just want to be a really good friend of her. The third one is just someone who shows very much affection to me and I have her on my mind probably only because of despair. Ironically, she’s the only one I’ve had descent conversations with and felt that bonding energy between us. Life is tough.

Peace

Well after a really long wait, my blog is finally back online! Spymac 4 looks really neat so far, the blog is awesome too, although I really hate that blue background in title. I’m hoping to change that soon though. Anyways, sometime I have to sit down and write down all the stuff that happened to me since late August.
As of right now, my life is just fine. I’m just chilling here, posting this entry on a Saturday afternoon, listening to random acoustic songs on my XMMS. Well Spymac’s back online so that made my day. That’s all I really wanted to say now.

Peace